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Chapter 20
Days
With Grandmother Evil
Every time
our parents had a secret or something we should not know about we were
taken to Schlossberg where our grandma,
Uncle
Remigius, also known as Uncle Dittl, Aunt Erna and our cousins lived. I
was not very excited about the trip but it was always a welcome change to
go there.
Grandma was
the old man’s mother, and she was just as mean as he was. Not only did she
terrorize her own grandchildren who lived in the same house, and her
daughter-in-law, but she controlled all the people in the neighborhood and
their children. All day she sat by the window so she wouldn’t miss
anything or anybody. She kept a pair of shears close. In the evening she
didn’t turn on the light so she could remain unseen. She would sit at the
window until late into the night. She didn’t go to bed until the street
was quiet.
Grandma
seemed to know about everything and everybody. She was convinced she had
to keep an eye on the “low class people” as she called them and they had
to be thank full for what she was doing for them.
I always
wondered why nobody told her to mind her own business and stop spying on
the neighborhood. When one of the neighbor’s children passed the house
carrying a shopping basket she would ask them, “What are you going to
buy?” Or “Where did you get the money to buy all this?” Other times she’d
ask, “Who gave you those new clothes? Who paid for them?” It was really
embarrassing when she leaned all the way out the window and yelled, “Tell
your mother that she shouldn’t let you run around so dirty.”
She bragged
about her perfect family and her high stand in society. She said that
everyone in the town respected her opinion and that she upheld a high
moral standard. To maintain this way of life, her 14 children were raised
with a strong hand, disciplined with the leather belt my grandfather, a
shoemaker, made especially for whipping.
After these
routine lectures the old witch, as I called her, explained that only this
ruling and restriction gave her children the discipline they needed and my
father became what he was because of it. He was famous as a 14-year-old
and directed a 45 brace instrument orchestra and a 60 voice choir in
Riffinging, a town close to Schlossberg.
“You useless
kids,” as she called us, “don’t deserve a father like him. Neither one of
you plays an instrument,” she would say. “And you,” she meant me, “are too
stupid and lazy to attend the Conservatorium (School for music) with the
beautiful voice you inherited from your father.”
What she did
not know was that I had decided, out of hate for my father, that I would
never learn an instrument or become an opera singer as he always wanted me
to be. I hated her just as much as I hated him. In my helpless way as a
child I swore I would pay her back for her evil and not attend her funeral
when she died. Since it was her biggest wish that everybody should attend
her funeral service, listening to the praises the priest would have for
her and stand in tears on her grave. Nigg and I agreed that if the old
pretentious holy witch could have her way she would demand the Pope
sanctify her as holy and speak at her grave.
Even with all
the bad things at her house it was better than being at home.
Uncle
Dittl and
Aunt Erna’s children, Sylvia, Serena, Tanya and Remigius, who was called
Miggele, lived in the upstairs portion of the house. Sylvia and I were
born the same year and were eleven years old. We liked, and understood,
each other even though we were rivals at times. I did not feel like
playing with her dolls or any other game. It was nice to watch them play
though. Sylvia and Serena never understood why I didn’t like to play house
or mama and papa. Sometimes I wondered that myself, because my girlfriends
asked me the same thing. They said I was not fun to play with. I wondered
if there was something wrong with me.
On Sundays we
had to go to their church. Aunt Erna gave me one of Sylvia’s old Sunday
dresses to wear. I didn’t mind because they were nice. It made me feel
just the way I had when Lella called me “a little princess”. The most
important thing for Sylvia and me was the walk down the hill to the
church. We made sure everybody saw us. We ignored Aunt Erna’s warnings to
walk, and behave, like young ladies. We would swing and turn so our skirts
flew up in the air. Serena, always obedient to her mother’s warnings, told
Aunt Erna that we were showing off. Sylvia and I would just look at each
other. I would get scared and she would start giggling. I was always
amazed when other kids were not afraid of their parents. That certainly
wasn’t true at our house. My father answered any disobedience with a hose
in the laundry room.
These were
Catholic relatives and we had to be on our knees a lot when we went to
their church. Nigg always said “This is the last time I come to this
church, my knees hurt.” The kneeling didn’t bother me.
After church
Aunt Erna would be waiting for us with a big Sunday meal. She went to the
early service so she could come home and start cooking for her family.
Uncle Dittl
started teaching Miggele to fly when he was ten years old. I liked my
uncle and sometimes I couldn’t believe that he and my father were
brothers. Uncle Dittl was always in a good mood and almost never hit his
children. He only gave them a smack once in a while.
When Uncle
Joseph, my father’s other brother, showed up at the airport club it was
always exciting. He called himself “the Count from Bollstadt”. When Uncle
Joseph came in his big Mercedes there was always a crowd of people around
him. If he did not wear his SS uniform, then there was always something
that attracted people. He always had something special for the kids in his
car. One time he had the trunk full of little baby rabbits as gifts for my
cousins.
Those weekends
did not come often enough for me and flew by much too fast. We I had to
return to our everyday no good lives, working and receiving our
“beneficial lectures”, as my father explained the beatings.
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